"The heart has such influence over the understanding that it is worth while to engage it in our interest." - Lord Chesterfield
I ran into an old friend yesterday- Mary from the children's center. You may remember the story of how I had a dream about her husband right after he died....even tho I had never met nor seen the man before..in my dream he wanted her to know she was always his sunshine, and now he is hers.....those exact words...Right after I had the dream she called me and asked me to calligraphy letters he had written for their 2 daughters on paper that he had drawn a self portrait of himself.....and when I went to pick up the paper I was like, "that is exactly him". The self portrait he had sketched was exactly the man I had seen in my dream. I shared the dream with her, always prefacing these things with, "ok this is going to sound weird but..." I asked her "did he used to call you sunshine?" and she said "No.".......and so I told her the message anyway "that he wanted her to know that she was his sunshine and now he is hers"...and then I felt like a real dope..I went home kind of looking up at God like, "Um, I told You I would do these things for You but You do realize the way it makes me look, right?" The minute I walked in the house the phone rang and it was Mary and she was crying saying " I didn't think of this when you were telling me the dream but every morning when I woke up he would roll over and say, "hello sunshine". The next time I saw her, I had found a stuffed sunshine pillow with a big smile on it and I gave that to her and she hugged it like a little child.
Well today after we talked for a bit I was getting ready to leave and she grabbed my arm hard and said....."have you had anymore dreams????? I think about what you told me all of the time" I had to say no.... I said, " I believe he just wanted you to know that and I am just open enough for God to allow me to hear the message and I will just say, 'ok! I'll do it.' I'm just glad I could help.
She has had something to hold onto all this time..........because I was willing to look like a fool - to blindly take what was placed in my heart via a dream, and share that message with someone who desperately needed it. He has messages to share and when He gives you something to share, share it. Don't hold onto it, it isn't yours. It's theirs. I could have just looked at that like a weird dream and brushed it off. It meant the world to her. Deeper than I can even imagine.
What if I had chosen to not share it? I could have just locked it away, but I trusted it's power to do what God intended. Don't lock away the things God had placed on your heart, placed in your hands. Because they aren't just from you, they are from Him. Deliver His love. It could mean the world to someone. Deeper than you can even imagine.