I kind of feel very vulnerable telling this story but for some reason it is really on my heart today so I guess there is a reason. I don't really remember how this started, whether it was my idea to help Leigha, or whether it was something she just started doing. I've said this before, that she names all of her stuffed animals after people that she loves. If you give her a stuffed animal she will usually name it after you....so that when you aren't around, she still can "hug" the people she loves. (As I typed that I kind of felt like, yeah, that really sounds like a "Linda-thing".) Anyway, if you haven't given her an animal and she loves you, she will find an animal and name it after you. She has lots of stuffed animals and they all share that purpose. So she can hug them, when someone she loves isn't there right then for her to hug in person.
Wow so it's been like over 10 years ago I was drawn back to a place that I used to go, this time to go to a flea market. I really did not want to go to this place or this flea market because the memory of this place was just still way too painful. To this day it takes an incredible amount of strength on my part but I focus on the bigger picture. So this particular day God was nudging nudging nudging me to go to this flea market and I was not cooperating. But He won, as He always does, so I drug myself there. I could NOT understand why I just HAD to go to this stupid flea market. What could possibly be so important???? I walked in the door and I knew immediately why He sent me there. Because there, on the table in front of me was this stuffed animal. Not A stuffed animal. THE stuffed animal. I grabbed it up into my arms and held onto it as tears ran down my face and at first I thought "Why would someone get rid of this??!!" But of course I knew the answer to that and then God laid on my heart, "So that you can hug it , when someone you love isn't there right then for you to hug in person."
May you feel the love in this story. May you hear my heart. And may you never forget how much you are loved.